I Just Want An Answer...
...I've come to the conclusion that our Haitian Adoption journey could very well end without out Peanut. I've guarded my heart throughout this process. But it still kills me to think he will be the one who truly suffers if they don't allow us to become his family. I've tried to stay positive, but like I said, I've been very guarded. I read this on a fellow adoptive family's blog. They are in dispense along with us. They have 3 biological children as well:
"...called IBESR today again and our file is still in dispense with 125 other families. The way I understand it is that the president has told IBESR to figure out what to do..."
It goes on to say that IBESR is frustrated with the situation. Really, what does this mean? I'm praying that we will have an answer to this situation. One way or the other, we are prepared. We've been prepared. But the "limbo" is deadly to our hearts. So we will put our trust in Jesus for our little man. That his life will be lived out in the strength of Jesus Christ. We believe we can give him all the love and comfort and nutrition he needs as well as an education that will enable him to "do something" in his world. To make a difference. But I hold loosely to my own ideas...and I pray to always be motivated by God.
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8&9