Tomorrow is our birthparent interview. Ashers birthmom lives 3 hours away from PaP. Pray that this interview will take place with positive results and not DNA request. Pray for his birthmom, I can't imagine being a mom and doing this interview. Breaks my heart.
I've been very discouraged today for some reason. I'll just lay it out there, I feel very alone in this adoption. Please forgive me, I know that there are some who have waited a very long time. The wait is hard but I think my heart aches to connect with someone. During our adoption of Evan, we connected with a huge family of adoptive parents adopting from China who were "waiting" as well. This adoption is very different. I know it's partly due to not using an agency. Those using an agency do have that unity, unfortunity we aren't a part of that. Make me sad and somewhat envious right now because I'm needing it. But there is a huge community out there that are not agency specific. Except for a few of very wonderful blog buddies, I can't seem to connect. I hate that feeling. I'm confessing this right now and praying that God will show me His purpose and not my own "feelings". I was obedient in following His lead when he led us to Haiti. And it has proven to be a very lonely road.
When we began there seemed to be an excitement from those who were adopting from the same O. Then it stopped, there's been silence since. I want to be excited. I want to share the ups and downs of the process with fellow adoptive parents openly. Our children need us to be united, that's important for them to know that others have traveled the same path as they have. Connections. Family. That's what's lacking, Family.
I was thinking about starting an unmoderated yahoo group for anyone who has/is adopting from FHG. A Christian group. For lifting each other up in prayer. I wanted to do this before but because I moderate another special needs group(along with other things), thought it may be too much. But I'm willing to try it if others were interested.